Life of Endo
The past few months have been anything but kind.
Let see we have the autoimmune diagnosis that’s really taking its toll, migraines taking me out, POTS being potsie and endometriosis that sent me to the emergency room in tears.
Apparently my endo has made its way to my diaphragm which causes the most indescribable pain. No pain meds can touch the pain. It comes in waves so intense it literally brings me to my knees.
I laid in the bathroom for two hours straight just praying that the pain to either take me out or go away. Honestly would have been fine with the first one at that point.
The pain begins like a burning sensation in my chest then turns in the spasms coupled with stabbing sensations.
So my amazing fiancé took me to the ER where they first tried telling me I can’t have endo anymore because I had a hysterectomy.(if that’s true then how’d I get regrowth of endo removed 2 years after my hysterectomy?) to diagnosing me with an endometriosis flare up. Oh and while I was bawling (I rarely cry from pain) they gave me F*** Tylenol for it.
Truly freaking laughable. The whole experience reminded me why I don’t seek medical attention anymore and would rather keel over in my apartment then deal with the stupidity and gaslighting of ER doctors.
so they sent me on my way with a massive bill they tried getting me to pay as I’m still crying. ABSOLUTELY not send it to insurance first Lady!
So I am here to tell you first off my life is a moving train wreck and I am the train and the wreck.
Secondly,
You’re not alone and you are not crazy. You are valid. You are loved. All our suffering is a beautiful testimony in the making.
Ps chronic illness tip from my tastebuds
Vitimine water is a pure blessing. I can’t drink regular water anymore without being nauseated to the ends of the earth. But vitiminwater has been a life saver! Truly. Has B vitimines, zinc, vitamin C. Also came out with some for beauty, gut health and etc.
Definitely my saving grace these days and we’ll Diet Coke for the win.
Until next time
Xoxo
Beautiful souls