When a football player injures their knee they get surgery. After surgery they have to learn how to use their leg again, including putting weight on it, reminding  the muscles of their purpose again. Trauma to the body rewires the brain into finding a detour to help keep the body as whole. 

Being chronically ill changes our brain chemistry, our brains are in a constant battle trying to find different pathways running from the pain. We have to relearn how to reprogram our bodies to remind our brains they know how to work correctly. 

It was hard for me to understand this as I went through surgery after surgery. I’m sure you feel the same way, finding yourself running in circles. I finally stopped trying to figure things out myself and sought help. 

These two things that have helped make my journey more bearable -  

• See a therapist 

• Go to Pelvic Floor Therapy 

Seeing my therapist has helped me to come to grips with the fact I am dealing with a disease so brutal. It took a year for me to understand that I am going to make it through this. I healed a lot and still have a lot of healing to do. 

I encourage you to see a therapist or talk to a trusted person about what is going on in your beautiful head. 

Second, pelvic floor therapy changed my life. I was in so much pain having to use diazepam vaginal suppositories to calm the nerves down. I had sharp pain and pelvic exams were not going to happen. I went through the steps and made amazing progress through my doctor's help. I still have pain but now I have the knowledge to know what to do and how to do it. 

(Come back next week for my pelvic floor therapy blog) 

I recommend seeing what therapists mentally and physically are in your area. These two things can make a difference for you. It might be mentally hard to do pelvic physical therapy as a SA survivor. I know that feeling and it was really hard to go. After a while I got comfortable and 4 years later I still see her. 

Give yourself some slack. Your body is wounded and trying to heal. We have to reteach our bodies and give them pathways to heal but taking and following the steps. 

Much love beautiful souls. Comment down below how long it took for your diagnosis!